Day 8 - If you could go back in time (before your addiction/disorder) what would you tell yourself?

This is a really hard question, because I didn't really know what was going on when I got anorexia. I just started having these feelings that was I was eating wasn't ok anymore, but I didn't know why. For a while I ignored the thoughts but they became stronger and I started to feel bad about myself, and not eating seemed to be the only thing that made me happy...

If I could go back, even though I don't think I'd listen, I'd say that size doesn't matter and eating whatever you feel like is worth more than any supermodel figure. I wish I could go back to the time when I was just a carefree happy teenager who enjoyed life, but I can't. I'm still learning to cope with the fact that I can't just snap my fingers and make the thoughts disappear. Instead, I must be strong enough to overcome the thoughts at every meal. 

I don't know why this happened to me... But I hope that out of it I will learn things about myself and life that are really valuable and I can use to help others :)