Day 4 - Have you emotionally harmed anyone (besides yourself) with your addiction/disorder? If so, how?

This is the worst part about getting anorexia. Not only are you harming yourself, but it makes you withdraw from relationships and social interactions. It also makes you really irritable and nothing is fun anymore. 

I became so scared and focused on food that everything else became unimportant and I blocked it out. 

When I had to go to hospital and we were told what it was I was in denial and said some pretty hurtful things to my parents but now I am so grateful because they must have been so frightened! My heart rate was only just over 30bpm when I was awake. Normal sleeping rate is 60-100 or something. I was literally a heart attack waiting to happen and a few more days and I might not be writing this right now.

Hospital and the first few months after were a very highly stressful and emotionally intense time where a lot of hurtful things were said and done. Anorexia has also convinced me to hide things from my parents but I want to be open with them.

I have also hurt my siblings because I haven't been the big sister that's always there to protect them lately.

My friends have also lost their carefree buddy for a while who isn't paranoid about food and so won't go out with them. But that fun-loving chicka is on her way back 🎉 I even went out with them for frozen yoghurt and ate it all the other day, which was a big step for me, not to just throw it out and pretend I are it 😁