So I've been on the actual day program for a week and four days now and its been really hectic so I haven't had time to blog or anything but I thought as I am in the car on the way home it would be a good opportunity to do an update
So the aim of the program is to increase weight and challenge a lot of fear foods while at the same time working through some of the psychological issues we have with Anorexia.
Every day we have school for three hours, and then after lunch we have group therapy and activities for three hours, which I think is a bit long considering I am in my last year of school and I'm falling way behind in everything.
So I have 5 kilos to gain till I get to my goal weight, which is freaking me out because I already feel MASSIVE! And at the hospital all the food we get is really bad and we have a really short time to eat it in so it doesn’t make me feel very good about myself.
On thursdays we have social eating day where we have to eat takeaway for lunch!!!!!!! Last week it was a huge plate of pad thai and today it was a subway with bacon, ham, turkey, cheese, mayo and salad on white bread and a white chocolate and macadamia cookie.
This was super hard as I haven't eaten chocolate in a year and a half and I never eat the other things unless forced by my parents….although my relationship with them is getting a little better.
Although I was not happy about tonight's dinner- lasagne
In group every day we talk about things like unhelpful thinking, mindfullness, how to manage anxiety etc.
It does help but sometimes I get sick of talking about how I feel all the time and I just want to chat or play a game.
Tomorrow we have lunch with our parents at the hospital and I'm really nervous….they're probably going to bring something really bad. Last week I had to have two thick multigrain sandwiches with butter vegemite and cheese on one and mayo, ham and butter on the other, as well as half a litre of juice. It was horrible and I felt disgusting.
Anyway that's all I have for now
I will really try to post more regularly I PROMISE!
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