I'm really sorry I haven't made a post in a while. I've been really stressed with school work and other stuff and I hardly have time to think at the moment. I feel like I'm going to fail all my exams even though my final school exams aren't for a year I'm stressing like they're tomorrow :( things aren't looking good for when they're actually close...
My school offered for me to do my final year of school over two years, but that offer is sort of pointless when talking to someone with anorexia. To be seen as less able than everyone else, no thanks, I'll stick to trying to be the best!
Plus I'm worried that this year will just be full of stress because I'm probably going to be getting choice back with food again but my mind is still only about 30% in recovery, which isn't a good sign.
I just want it all to go away, and not even remember any of tees thoughts or feelings, but that can't and won't happen, so everything sort of seems pointless.
I'm trying to stay positive but school is just getting me down at the moment. I'm trying to come up with a good idea for my English class and it's driving me crazy. Does anyone have any ideas for a story, essay, speech topic??? It has to be pretty sophisticated with a really good metaphor or motif incorporated.
Time for a positive thought of the day and I've tried to make it about food. I LOVE CINNAMON! Chai lattes and teas are soon good.
I have an obsession for nice smelling things, especially coconut, caramel, cinnamon and vanilla! <3 maybe it's because I don't allow myself to eat much variety of foods I have developed a heightened sense of smell. Who knows?
Also, does anyone have a good idea for a birthday present? Mum still hasn't got me anything because she wants to get me something I would really like.
Managed to do this in my own hair the other day and I was so proud I just had to share it :)
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