Meal Plans

When I was in hospital, I was on this meal plan for about 3 weeks of my stay while having 1000-1500 calories at night through a naso-gastric tube. I don't know how that much fit inside me, and at the end I wasn't even putting on weight that quickly because my body got used to it . It's funny, the first five days I was in hospital I put on 5 kilos, probably most of high was water weight, but after that it slowed down. I did put on 11 kilos in 5 weeks though. Pretty impressive hey :P

This was the meal plan (the highest one) that I was on for most of the time in hospital: 

I always felt so bloated after meals, and we had to finish our mains within half an hour and snacks in 15 minutes! Now at home it takes me about 2.5 hours to have my morning snack and it's only two snack items and a piece of fruit :/ I need to work on that...it doesn't really allow me to do much else.

I don't really know why I eat so slow. It could be for a number of reasons, but maybe subcounsciously my body is savouring the meal because it still doesn't trust me to give it the next one, and at the same time the anorexia probably wants me to eat slowly because I shouldn't be allowed to eat next time. 

I see everyone else eating so fast and the food just disappears, and they hardly even tasted it! I don't know why this bothers me so much but what's the point of the calories if you don't actually get to enjoy eating them! I know this is disordered thinking, because ultimately it's just energy. I guess eating slow and tasting things for a long time makes me feel a bit better about the whole calories thing because at least I get a pleasant taste...

Does anyone else eat really slow?? 

Lunch yesterday: two pieces of bread with hummus, chicken, cucumber, carrot and lettuce :)