Day 12 - What are 3 things you would like to change about yourself?

There are so many things I want to change about myself. Some of these are just me, some are motivated by anorexia and some are the effects of anorexia, as well as all the superficial things such as looks. 

I think the things I don't like about myself the most are ways of thinking that I have that limit me and make me feel inferior as a human being and these are:

1. I'd like to change the way I think that unless I present a perfect image people won't like me

2. I'd like to change the way I see myself physically and not always be worried about the way I look (although on the superficial side I also wish I had a thinner face, better skin and less chunky legs :/ )

3. I wish I could eat without worrying about it!

Sometimes I forget that even people that seem to be perfect and have it all together have insecurities and things they would like to change about themselves, and no matter how hard we try we can never be this self-sufficient perfect human being but that's what life is all about, learning to depend on others and appreciate their differences. I do appreciate all the different things about the other people in my life, but somehow it always feels like they wouldn't do that for me because I'm just not worth it. 

Yesterday and the day before I had really bad days where I was upset with my parents and there was a lot of crying/ hurtful things said from both ends. Partly I think because we've been on holidays for three weeks, but it was good to get back into the routine of school again because it gives me something other than food to put my mind to. 

I have started the work for my final year of school! 😮

Only just over 53 weeks to go!! 

This is some pictures of part of my afternoon snack/me at work (I work as a cleaner but I was still in my school uniform today) 

I'm really going to try to post at least once a day from now on :)